Back Off Buddy

I was talking to Juan, my neighbor, who we all call Pastor. I don’t think he is a pastor, but he works for churches. He was asking me when I go to church and where I go. I go every Sunday, I said to him. He said, good, but you gotta read the Bible. Juan, I do read the Bible. Good, he said, but you gotta pray before you read it and ask the Holy Spirit to help you understand what you read. You gotta start talking to people about Jesus, you’re Spanish is good. Back off, Juan, is what I thought in my head. Yes Juan, is what I said.
Ask and I’ll give the nations to you, sings Shane B. I tried to find out where it says that in Psalms, and it’s actually a mix of different ones. But regardless, it’s still a longing that I have. And one I believe was put there by God. Quite a few of my friends have longings for certain nations. I guess one could say I’m living out that longing. But for what, exactly? I’m making friends, especially with some of my neighbors, hoping those friendships will lead to conversations. But hoping the convos wont come for a long while. That desire—not from God. It’s from my pride. I just don’t feel like getting into a spiritual debate in Spanish. Last night, I was attempting to explain the roles of women and men in the Bible around a table of senior citizens. After a little while, I was ready to leave. I’m not ready for this Lord. I don’t want to ready myself for this. But I’ve asked for a nation, for this people, whom You have given to me, in a way. I gotta learn to redeem the time. Change my attitude, please.